You again

The melancholy of the late nights,
The daunting homework before my eyes.
The feeling of stress and angst
I sat there, pensive.

Why had i fallen in love with you,
Why had i chosen such agony
Why were you so irresistable,
And my so willing to submit.

A thousand sorrow cannot explain my emotion
A million love cannot show my infatuation
Amongst billions i fell in love with you,
Yes, you and only you.

Should it all end in sorrow?
With me a broken soul.
Or should i tell you my feelings?
And risk broken and hurt.

A love transpire so easily,
And drags me cruelly
Wallops my heart and wallops my soul,
A tormet that does not leave me alone.

Why you?

My head in a spin
My mind in a whirl
Fragmented and weak,
I sat infront of my table.

Starring at the screen,
Your illusion hidden behind it.
Your picture smiling at me.
I smiled back at the screen.

Agony. Pains. Agony

To: joking with mr lam, truly and sincerely

1st Rejection

It's you
Who first rejected me.
who rejected my courageous advances
who detroyed my fragile heart.

It's you
I still cant forgive you...
I no longer feel confident in love.
I fear the same rejection

You, my love

My mind keeps on wandering off
Distracting me from this and that
I just cant get my mind off you,
Irresistable.

Your images keeps on lingering in my mind,
Flooding me with more and more false hope.
I see your smile in the photo..
How i wish you were smiling at me.

I just feel my sanity,
Being gnawed away by this foolish infatuation
I realised that i lack common sense.
Really, you let me realise.

I need to tell you what i feel,
But i can't muster the courage
Not for any ulterior motive,
Just to tell you i love you.

Just to let you know...

Please don't smile at me again,
Or touch me further.
Just let me forget you.
And erase the painful memories...

Struggling to convince myself,
That it's all but false hope.
Yeet love transcends everything,
Like my sensibility

It's a paradox, really.

Tell me you hate me,
And may my love for you decrease.
Perhaps the intitial dejection,
Will be followed by less pains.

I hope. I wish. I wonder.

To: james wishes me luck. truly and sincerely

To the same you

Unknown to you,
Unknown to others.
You have touched me,
More than once.

Maybe it was just a jesture,
Maybe just a few words,
Maybe i am too sensitive,
Nontheless i am touched.

Yet the cold and hard truth,
is that i cannot love you.
For you belong to someone else,
Someone i envy...

I crave for your love,
I crave for your attention.
I crave for your beautiful outside
And your more beautiful inside.

Yet irony is that,
My everincreasing crave for you,
Will in all eventuality,
Evolve into an everincreasing angst

Maybe you shld not have touched me,
Maybe i shld have refrained from loving you.

But if only you knew,
My heart belongs to you.
Even as you lives on as usual,
Oblivious to my love and greater love for you.

If only you love me too,
And you're willing to break down all the barriers,
I will do everything,
Just to be with you.

God is unfair,
He made you,
A girl so perfectly tailored to my likings,
Yet so perfectly out of my reach.

Trust me and believe me,
I truly love you
I will give up everything,
If only you truly loves me too

To: jianyang wants many loves, truly and sincerely

Love me, love me not

I look at you,
Yet the cowardice inside me
Make me put on a pretense,
As i look at you again,
Shy as I may be.
You not see my glancing at you.

My heart stirring,
Throbbing non-stop.
I see my nondescript life
Your presence makes a difference.
Lighted it up.
Added a new dimension.
I feel a new leash of life,
Momentarily, temporarily.

Yet close as i physically may be
My heart full of sentiments
And unspoken agony
I know i cannot love you,
For it's more than physical
That i am away from you.

I do not deserve you.
Someone else does.

Is this a joke on me?
I continue to steal glances at you.
Your life happy and contented,
Warms my heart.
A consolation maybe,
That you are at least happy,
And unaware of my internal struggles,
My untold love for you.

I admit it's all an infatuation
I admit i will grow out of it
I admit you will always have a place,
In my heart.
Even as time erodes all entities,
Your presence is etched in my memory.
A scar,
Yet also moments of heartfelt elation

If only you love me,
And i love you not...